Youth Programme
I made a firm intention in becoming a Muslim not only by name but by actions too I decided to go.I stood up from the bench I was sitting at and I walked towards my house when I saw a guy and girl by the swings.The guy was pushing the girl on the swings and the girl was laughing away as she went into the air with her hair flying.The Friendship they shared was the one Mike and I shared before we started dating.We use to come to this very park and I would run towards the swings*laughing*.I was and still am very child like,and its even better and nicer when someone pushes you be because you don’t have to exert any effort*smirking*ok fine I was lazy so I would make Mike my slave.*Smile*I remembered those days like it was just yesterday*sigh*.That chapter of my life is over,now I’m starting a new chapter in my book but to tell you the truth memories destroy us,they the only things that remain when we decide to move forward.I walk past the cute couple and head home but on my way home I decided to visit my Apa,actually it will be a surprise visit.So I changed directions and went there.On my way I see the guy selling Ice cream and all the kids are gathered around him with there parents,happy.My parents would take me out every Sunday when I was smaller to the park and I would buy ice cream.I remembered the one day
{Flashback}
That Sunday morning my mummy came to wake me up and I was so tired I told her to stop troubling me,even as a 6 year old I lovvved my sleep*lol*.So she told me then today we not going to the park.I quickly threw the covers off me and rushed to the bathroom
Suni:*screams*Mummmy!!Quickly bring my clothes,I want to go to the park..(mummy walks into the bathroom and laughs)
Mummy its not funny*crying*you said if I don’t get up we not going but I want to be pretty maybe I’ll get a boyfriend like Nazira mummy.She’s so pretty and I want to be pretty like her*wiping tears*.When I get big mummy I’m going to be soooo pretty that all the boys will like me
Mummy:*laughs*But didn’t you say honey that boys have cooties?*smiling*And you pretty also more prettier than Nazira*kisses my forehead*shhh don’t tell her that I said that ok honey?
Suni:Aww mummy I wanted to tell her you said because then I can make her jealous!!!*giggles*
Mummy:*Laughs*Sorry!!(even though she knew I was going to tell Nazira that’s)Come let’s go show Daddy how pretty his princess looks*smiles*
I giggle and skip downstairs to daddy and when I spot him
Suni:*Screams*Dadddddy!!!(I run and hug her)See how pretty I am( I turn to a 14 year old Nazira)Nazzu Mummy said I look prettier than you*I pull out my tongue and giggle*
Nazira:*she pulls tongue at me*I’m jealous!!
Daddy just laughs and went back to his newspaper so I started pulling his Shirt and he smiled at me got up and called mummy And we left for the park.When we reached the park I ran to the swings and told my daddy to make quickly because he must push me.I spent an entire day on the swing with my daddy pushing me and mummy sitting on the picnic blanky.As we started walking to wards the beautiful flowers I ran ahead to my favourite part.The walk way had a hearts made of flowers over my head.After that we decided to go home when I saw the ice cream man.Daddy and I walked towards him
Daddy:What would you like to have Princess?
Suni: hmmm I wants that one(pointing towards it)
Daddy:(to the man)I will take three magnum peppermint?
Daddy payed the man and we left,I was skipping home as usual when ever we left the park sucking my ice cream when a car came speeding down and hit me.
{End of flashback}
I smile remembering those days.I reached APAs house and rang the bell and I waited till someone asked who it was and I told them.When the door opened Uwais was standing there
Uwais:So what brings you here today?*eyebrows raised*
Suni:To come play marbles*sarcastic*.I came to see my Apa who by the way lives in this house and is your sister or did you forget?*Smirk*
Just then I heard Apa asking Uwais who was here and came to the door and when she looked at me she was surprised
Apa:What brings you here today Suni?(I see she’s dressed to go somewhere)
Suni:*Looking down*I came to visit but its ok if you going out(Uwais walks away from here)
Apa:*Laughing*Nonsense you can come with me you know,by the way are you shy of Uwais?Come in!!(I walk inside and she closes the door)so how are you Suni after Mike?
Suni:I’m okay I think I’m numb to the pain I feel..Sometimes I just want to tell people how I feel..Friends,family,Aquintances and strangers
Apa:I figured as much but I don’t know how to take away your pain(she said just as we entered her room and I went to sit on her bed)but I can give you advise.Do not tell everyone your story.Not everyone can rescue you from drowning.Some people will push you further into the water,pretending to care as they sit back and watch you gasp for air.Look who you befriend,they maybe be nice to your face but behind your back they stab you
Suni: Jazkilla for the advise Apa,by the way where are we going?
Apa:we are going(going into the closet and comes out minutes later with a stunning Hanayan cloak and scark with pumps)to the youth programme so you will be wearing this*laughs*
She gives me the clothes and I went to change.When I came out IÂ felt like a totally different person as I was going back to her room I bumper into Aunty Salma.She hugged me and told me she misses me
Suni:I miss you too Aunty Salma*air kisses*
Aunty Salma:*frowns*You know I don’t like those air kisses*laughs*you never changed one bit and I would not have want you to change.(she looks at me from head to toe and back again)Wow subhanalla you look beautiful..May Allah always keep you beautiful and smiling and happy ..Ameen
Suni:*laughs*You know I like to annoy you Aunty Salma…I like who I am so why must I change…Ameen ..jazkillah so much for the Duas
Aunty Salma:*smiles*You know something Sunaina today you are different you got a different aura surrounding you.I know that you thinking of changing your life but remember one thing when we repair our relationship with Allah,He repairs everything else for us
Just then APA came towards us and told me we have to go,so Aunty Salma said ok but I have to come back for supper so I promised her I would.Uwais was the one to drop us of at the hall where the youth programme was taking place.When we went inside Apa deserted me and then I realized she was part of this Youth programme coz she was the M.C.So I listened to Naats Qiraat and lemme tell you that play was awesome,but sad.Now was a short break when Apa came to me
Apa:Are you enjoying it Suni?
Suni:Jee I am APA
Apa:Suni I want you to speak today give the youth inspiration please
Suni:Apa I never spoke in front of a large crowd before
Apa:You will manage..There’s a first for everything
Apa walked away and I sat in my place waiting for the second half.There was another nasheed,Question air,hadith and then me.So as nervous as I was I walked out and sat on the stage.I greeted everyone and they replied
Suni:I hope everyone is enjoying the programme *laughs* Sorry guys but I never did this before so I’m hellava nervous*audience laughs*You must be wondering why I’m here,I’m here for the same reason you are that is to learn how to deal as a youth concerning different aspects in life but I won’t be telling you any of those things.Today I will tell you my life story…
Allah sometimes afflicts us with a calamity so devastating,that we just can’t understand why it happened to us.We start to wonder if its a punishment for something we did or because he is angry with us,But the key to dealing with such an event is to realize that there is no clear answer in this world.What matters is to know that it is a test administered by Allah and he can only burden us as much as we can handle.It is our choice whether we want to take it as a chance to get closer to him or to go astray.I was just a liitle girl like many of your brothers and sisters and I had a friend who was a guy, it was innocent to most people around us because at that age we think boys have cooties but to me no I didn’t think they had cooties, I once told my mummy when I was six that I wanted a boyfriend and that’s where our family friends son Mika’eel Mohammed came in or as we all call him Mike.We the best of friends and just like that over the years our friendship turned into much more,a relationship.It was Haraam but to me it wasn’t.I went madrassa but I was never brought up in a Islamic environment.So I didn’t have anyone telling me what was wrong and right beside my maternal and paternal grandparents but me being me told them that’s its freedom.Today I realize that freedom was Jahannam because the worst sin I got involved in was Zina.I forgot Allah was watching my every move, I forgot Shaytaan was the third person with us and I forgot that what I was doing was Haraam.One day they moved to New York,I was heartbroken so I because ice een of my school.When he came back we faced problems but we got over it and then one day he left this world forever and that’s when my eyes opened up to actually realize that I’m doing so much of sin but I don’t know if I am going to live for the next minute or second.That’s when I decided to change.Take a leap of faith.Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life.Tip toe if you must but take the step.Everybody has gone through something that has changed them in a way that they could never go back to the person they once were,some towards bad and some towards good.Lucky I changed for the better not the worst.Along time ago I read something once that “Do not let your difficulties fill you with anxiety. after all,it is only in the darkest nights,That the stars shine more brilliantly.”-Ali(Radiallahu anhu).I was a person that was after the materialistic things in this world,it was like Janna but  is Janna in this world better than the Janna of the hereafter, it said in Bukharin that “In janna are things an eye has never seen ,an ear has never heard,and a mind that can’t even imagine.”Inshallah we all meet in Janna and Allah grant us the highest stages in janna Ameen…Hope that at least something I said benefited you in some way.Asalamualikum
I walked of the stage and went to sit back in my place when they called the guest speaker Sister Rehana Omar to make Duas but before she started
Sister Rayhana:Never give up on making Duas to Allah.It may not happen now,it may not happen next month but it will happen when Allah knows is best for you…
Oh Allah ease our hardships,mend our broken hearts,heal our ailments and increase our love for you..
Ameen
The programme was finished and Owais came to pick us up and I had supper there which was delicious and then they dropped me home and when I entered it seemed as if everyone was asleep so I went to my room brushed my teeth dressed in PJs got into bed and opened my diary and wrote
Dear Diary
I couldn’t have asked for a better person to walk into my life than you…You may have left this world but I have a small place in my heart just for you but now I’m trying to move on and in the halaal way and in the right direction too..You will always be remembered Mike..
Love ya
I closed the diary and placed it besides me and off’d my lamp and went to sleep peacefully since the night Mike passed away…
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